Marriage

After twelve years of being together and eight years of marriage I am at a loss. I have pushed the only person to have stood by my side for the last twelve years out the door. Why...... because I have the asshole gene that I can't seem to outgrow. It is extremely hard for me to articulate when I'm pissed off about something and with the "asshole gene" it turns into world war three because I say shit that I don't mean and that is highly inappropriate at the time. That combined with a woman's emotions is a recipe for disaster. So here I sit alone one week to the day from my eighth wedding anniversary with no wife and divorce on the horizon. I am not sure who said it but I read a quote somewhere that said " The tongue is the most destructive weapon on earth" whoever that person he/she is oh so right. It's funny how you can be so complacent in life that you miss it crumbling down around you. Let me tell you about irony it is the fact that I am a mechanic and can fix anything and keep it running but when it comes to my relationship its like a car in the junkyard that will be parted out till there is nothing left but the framework and it will be crushed and melted down to make a new car. I don't ever regret much or spend a lot of time living in the past but I am positive I will regret this the rest of my life.